Gettin on up, gettin on out.

Counts came in well this morning.  We are still in the incubation period though for Holling to show symptoms of Playroom 3B licking and Norovirus so…..we go tomorrow.  Gives us a chance to observe if her bp improves without the antibiotics and antifungals.  Also if anyone starts hurling at the house in Richmond then we can divert to another location for a few days. 

Now the pack up, the haul and then the pickup in the morning for maybe even a quick lunch at Ricki’s for Ruby’s hashbrown and sausage hankering.  Dad’s pancakes were spot on this morning.  She was super impressed.  The chicken sandwich was also a winner. Good on ya Brian, can we open a resto in the Junction now?

much love, much hope,



Norwalk virus outbreak at hospital

Well I suppose now we get to experience lockdown in the hospital.  No access to kitchen or other wards, no one come in…..I can go out but carefully.  No visitors.  So food is a challenge.  Will have to do takeaways and Brian will have to do drops from the air haha.

Ruby’s counts are the same as yesterday but her hemoglobin is crashing as is her platelets.  Up for more transfusions tomorrow.

Blood pressure before seeing this picture: 70/30


Blood pressure after this picture 74/45!

Thanks Michael 🙂



.3 and counting

just a quickie here

Counts up a point – we are hoping she rockets up before the ceiling caves in.  For the first time in a month (ya we’ve been in this little room almost a month) there’s the sound of running water above the beds. I remember all the old apartments that I’ve lived in with hot water heating.  It’s that sound, above us.  That familiar rush of water and then that tick tick tick of the heating pipes.  It’s nice…as long as it’s not leaking into the ceiling.  I say that not as a paranoid basedonnothingbutfinehonedmamapanic but as a veteran mom of a chemo patient in this ward.  Three times since being here there’s been water leaks in various rooms.  Into the walls, coming out of the ceiling etc.  We’ve been lucky and hopefully this is just a little warm reminder of well loved apartments in my past.

Righteo, no blood products required today.  Meeting with docs to inform of our next break at 12:30, Ingrid, one of Holling’s favorite ladies is here from the Great White North and it’s Alison’s Birthday today!  Everyone wish her a continuation of her timeless beauty and ageless wisdom.  We wish you all the best jokes and endless warm fuzzy love.

If you know me, you’ll know I like being wrong

I truly do.  I enjoy being wrong.  I might question, I might get passionately involved in the discussion but if there is information I don’t have and I can benefit from it, I’m in.  All in.

righteo so here we go again although this time with more information.

Turns out that the stickers for CMV tested blood are quite irrelevant as they are no longer going to test blood for CMV.  This I suppose is a good thing and a bad thing while Blood Services relies on their filtration to almost remove it from the blood supply.  Ya.  Thank god for technology.  So here we are waiting for platelets.  You know again I have to say that if parents were given information about the drugs and the risks and the reasons behind decisions made then we wouldn’t feel so in the dark.  It’s a huge responsibility to place on people who don’t have the adequate resources or time to make them. 

Ruby’s counts appear to be coming up thankfully negating the need for an early stem cell infusion.  We will be taking a break once we are out of here to recoup her health.  Not sure what the next step is or what the next step should be.  All I know is that after speaking to the oncologist I feel reassured that we all share the same questions, the same “unknowns” and at least he’s got some connections to other professionals out east and in Germany who he can reach out to for more info. I think making it clear that while we treat this type of cancer like other ones, it’s understood across the board that there is very little research done on pineos so therefore there is no real standard of care plan that fits and works for this particular cancer.  There’s what they can do and …well…I suppose that’s what they can do. 

We wait.  And wait.  And make short term plans. 

By the way, the nail salon is open and if you want some nail painting done, Ruby’s doing nails for free and throwing in the odd finger for special customers.

0.2! Thanks all you light workers!

Righteo so now sitting at .2 though we need a platelet transfusion today.

Spirits are good, nose is runny (could be chemo, could be something else).  I found it interesting how the doc said to me “Well, how would THAT happen?  There’s no way she caught that in here.”  And I almost laughed out loud.  Until I realized that she was completely serious.

With the number of warning signs on doors in an unfiltered unhermetically sealed unit that indicate contagious colds/flu/pneumonia etc…with nurses coming and going and explaining to me while they only use the microsan between patients that the only way to truly clean your hands is with soap and water (Cdif and the respiratory ones need soap and water)…..yaaaaa…with volunteers coming and going and air that flows between rooms…ya.  I have NO idea how she could possibly get sick.

No idea.


No clue.


Still no counts


Well, still sitting here, trying to keep Ruby healthy.   She had an MRI this afternoon.  All clear so far.  🙂 That’s fantastic news considering we were told that this recurs at a very high rate in short order after surgery.  

That’s the big update of the day.  Good news.  Need those counts to get up there so we can get her out of the hospital to recover her health from treatment. 

Rainy day playing havoc with my sinuses.

Her heart rate is still playing silly buggers as is her blood pressure.  Sometimes I sit here for hours just listening to music or mediation stuff or random things online and every 5 seconds I make sure she is still breathing.  This is one of those days.

Day 22 on the inside

Well here we are at Day 22 with a child who is still not producing wbc or red blood cells or anything really. Apparently there was a family before us who brought up the CMV connection to blastoma type cancer tumors becoming resistant to treatment (by a whopping 75% increase in resistance to treatment)…and CMV positive blood products given to a CMV negative patient…with a blastoma type tumor cell.  Ya.  So I insisted on tests and fortunately this is going to happen.  I appreciate being heard.  The next thing to happen is a discussion – I requested a conversation about an early stem cell transplant.  As in the next couple of days.  So the good thing is Naomi is on it.  She’s our superstar negotiator nurse.  She makes it happen.  She’s going to coordinate a meeting to discuss this as a potential treatment.  The thing is the conversation has to happen very soon as it takes time to prep and to make sure she doesn’t get sick.  So now…being in pre transplant mind…we will again need to isolate up.  Which isn’t much different but might mean I won’t get to hug my little bug for a while.  Poor Holling, it’s a good thing Brian and Holling have each other during this.  Image


It’s tough on the little dude too.  He had his 4th birthday with some “safe” (not sick) friends of ours and after he said to his dad “Daddy, I had a good time on my birthday but next time can we invite some kids to my party?”